This shit is probably way too personal, so if I get to the end of this post and feel like I want to throw up, I'll just hit 'delete.'
It's about The Way I Am. I just want to go on record as knowing. That is, I'm not walking around in a cloud of self-delusion about any of it: the nervous talking, the hypersensitivity, the gullibility, the conflict avoidance, the pathological need to be liked. I'm one of those dogs that's been kicked too much, beyond repair. I just want you to know that I know that, I see it. I don't kid myself about it. I do try to hide it from other people, with varying levels of success. Some people see it anyway, and wonder if I'm some kind of sociopath. So, for you guys -- I'm not. Really.
It's about The Way I Am. I just want to go on record as knowing. That is, I'm not walking around in a cloud of self-delusion about any of it: the nervous talking, the hypersensitivity, the gullibility, the conflict avoidance, the pathological need to be liked. I'm one of those dogs that's been kicked too much, beyond repair. I just want you to know that I know that, I see it. I don't kid myself about it. I do try to hide it from other people, with varying levels of success. Some people see it anyway, and wonder if I'm some kind of sociopath. So, for you guys -- I'm not. Really.
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