maybe i'm not a plotter after all

I'm beginning to think that this book is unwrite-able, at least by me.

I spent a couple of weeks in February crafting an after-the-fact Narrative Summary, before plunging into rewrite #4, but for some reason I just do not understand, I can't stick to it. The characters have developed completely illogical minds of their own, which you would find highly surprising if you could see how one-dimensional they all are. I've made it to 27,247 words this time before getting hopelessly entangled in this fucking spider web of a plot. I believe that I have well and truly breached Step 10.

Seriously, though -- how the hell do you do it, you godlike creatures out there who have actually finished writing novels? I'm honestly afraid, today, that I won't make it.